Wednesday, February 23, 2011

I'm on my way!

I'm disappointed I didn't get the chance to blog through pre-season properly. I completed all of the tasks and it opened my eyes to the reasons I have failed in the past. In a way, I guess I had a breakthrough. It all boils down to me being lazy, having no will power and blaming everything and everyone else around me for failing. Not this time. I know it's all up to me and I can do this.

Today is day 4 on program. My starting weight on Sunday was 92.3kg and yesterday (Wednesday) was weigh in day and I am now down to 90.3kg. So, very very happy with a 2kg loss in 3 days. It has been hard. I'm just not a salad eater, so I struggle getting through some of the meals, especially the lunches. Monday I did the beginners cardio program at the gym, Tuesday I did Body Pump and last night I did Michelle Bridges Cardio Kicker DVD. As soon as the boy goes down for his nap this afternoon, I am off to the gym to do some weight training. (My husband works nights so he's home sleeping - I'm not leaving the boy here by himself! ;))

I have been using my heart rate monitor for each work out and am yet to crack the 400 calories burned in a session. I did just under that during Body Pump so I think I must push myself more in a class environment. I'm doing RPM on Sunday, so I hope to crack it then.

All in all, it's been a pretty good week. Looking forward to week 2 coming up and another weigh in!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Goals

Ok then, goal setting time.

This was a lot harder than I ever thought it would be. When I really thought about it, the only goal I really had was to lose weight and get to a healthy weight as soon as possible (in a healthy sensible way of course!)

I have broken it down into stages, and will update these posts when I smash each goal!! ;) The program starts 21st Feb, so these goals are from that date on...

1 month
Run 1km non stop
Lose 4kg
I will achieve this by following the 12WBT program to the letter

3 months
Lose 10kg
Run 5km non stop
REWARD - Attending the 12WBT FINALE in a gorgeous frock!!

6 months
Lose 18kg
Run 5km under 30 minutes
Fit size 14 clothes
Do 20 push ups in 1 minute (I currently can do maybe 2! - on my toes )
BE FIT AND FABULOUS FOR OUR PLANNED HOLIDAY TO FIJI!!

12 months
Lose 25kg and be within healthy weight range/BMI
Enter fun runs at 8-10km distances
Wear a size 12 (without a muffin top!)
Sign up for 12WBT Lean & Strong

It seems pretty achievable to me. Even as I sit here now 25kg overweight, unfit, lethargic and craving sugar! I know when I eat well and do some exercise I feel better. Not just physically, but mentally, emotionally. I want to be that person that thrives off going for a run. I want to be that person who learns to love exercise. I WILL be that person. All that energy. I can't wait.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Task 2. Get Real - No More Excuses

So, yesterday afternoon I came home to find Michelle had uploaded a video outlining the requirements of task 2.

Basically, it's time to identify all of the excuses you would use not to exercise/lose weight/help yourself. Then it was time to come up with solutions for each of these excuses. Realistically, 99% of them are just that. Excuses. They are excuses that can be worked through, thrown away, whatever.

I wont type up everything I came up with, but these are the main ones:

  • No time
  • No babysitter
  • No energy
  • Too hard/not fit enough
  • Too hot/cold
  • Too tired
  • I have a headache, didn't drink enough water today
  • Not motivated
  • Too busy/have to cook dinner/do housework/work back
  • I haven't done any exercise all week, what's another day without it?
  • Don't feel like it
  • Can't find anything comfortable to exercise in
  • It's too late/early
  • Didn't wash my clothes
  • I won't succeed anyway, so why bother
  • my little boy is sick/wants his mummy/unhappy, I should be with him
  • What's the point?
I am having a hard time with the internal excuses. I have failed so many times, I feel like I am not worthy/useless/unmotivated/lazy. It is time to wake up to the fact that I need to do this for me. No one else can push me out the door to go for a run. My husband is fully supportive, as he is every time I try and lose weight. He seems even more enthusiastic than usual that I am doing this program. In the past I have blamed him when I fall off the wagon. I have now realised, it's not him. Yes, he brought the bad food into the house, but he didn't shovel it into my mouth. I did that. All by myself. It is my responsibility and it's time to take action.

I know all the other excuses I can work around. They are going to take some planning, and may take some time to get over the mummy guilt of not being there for my son as much as I have been or would like to. I have to think of it in a different way. The more exercise I do, the more weight I will lose and the more energy I will have to run around and play with my son. He will benefit way more than he would having me here when I'm fat, frumpy, unfit and unhappy.

I have to ignore those little voices in my head once and for all. It's time for a new way of thinking, and a new way of living.

The Beginning

It's time to get real.

For years I have struggled with my weight, and for years it has made me miserable and uncomfortable in my own skin. Time to make myself accountable, and this blog is going to help me get there.

I guess I should tell you a little about myself before we get into more of the nitty gritty!
My name is Megan, I am 34 years old. Happily married and Mum to one 21 month old gorgeous little fella.

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I began struggling with my weight towards the end of high school. Even in primary school and early high school I thought I was fat. Looking back now, I definitely wasn't and I am sad that I wasn't happy at a healthy weight. Things really went down hill when I left home. Too much take away, working full time and travelling 3 hours each day by train and so I didn't get out and do much exercise. If any. I would say I went from 65kg-88kg in the space of 12 months.

This is when trying to lose weight first started for me. I was 18, and am now 34. I want it to end now. I want to find the answers to why I do this to myself, why I sabotage myself, why I can't want it enough to make the time for myself, why I don't like myself enough. I am desperate to be fit and healthy.

A few days ago I joined Michelle Bridges 12 Week Body Transformation. I am convinced this is the most successful I am going to be at weight loss. I need all the help I can get to learn new behaviours. Michelle has designed a program and I will be sent a menu plan with shopping list (yay, because I hate shopping lists and grocery shopping!) and given an exercise program for my fitness level. Obviously that will be beginner level because... well I've done zero exercise in months. Unless you count walking up the stairs to go to the fridge.

I haven't weighed myself since before Christmas, but I feel about as heavy as I have ever been. I would guess that I am around 92kg (I will weigh myself when the challenge starts. Note to self: buy new batteries for the scales) and I need to get below 65kg. My dream, ideal weight is 58kg.

The challenge officially starts on 21st Feb. I am using the next few weeks to start getting myself a bit more active, get all my gear together I may need and to do all of the tasks Michelle sets to do before then.

I will be blogging throughout the challenge. I need somewhere to make myself accountable, record goals, accomplishments, or just vent about how hard this is! It's my blog, and I'll whinge if I want to. Then I'll get off my arse and go for a run!